Surely thats some kinda record?

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Shoulder isnt dislocated, its an inflamed tendon on top of the shoulder, which is being squished because the bone is too thick and there is not much room. If the pain isnt gone by November, they will grind the bone down.

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Now I have a “sub luxed” shoulder – a dislocated shoulder thats not completely out of joint. The doc and the physio cant really understand it. Xrays and ultrasounds show nothing except inflammation.
So, today its off to the doc to get a referral to the specialist. I am in a lot of pain, because from the surgery I cant stomach any “decent” pain killers. Its making me tetchy and grumpy, and making it hard to think straight (yes yes ha ha.. I know thats not all that much of a change )

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I didnt know it, but I was leaking from my staples, and would spend the next 6 weeks in hospital, then a further 6 weeks waiting for them to remove stents from my stomach which were causing my much pain and discomfort.

I’ve learned many things in the last year, but one that I am getting my head around now is just how hard it is to not be able to eat. Depression, it seems, is very common post surgery, according to some surveys, because of the profound effect food has on people, and the inability to eat it causes mental stress.

See, an alcoholic doesnt depend on alcohol to fuel their body, they wont die with out it. But someone who cant eat anything, WILL die.. and the brain knows this.. its a primal self preservation thing. Thats not why people get fat though, there are a gazillion reasons for that. But the fact is, there is a point where there is no return.
These days, I can not eat, even if I want to. No matter how much I want a baconator, I cant eat one. I can sniff, but I can not eat. I can not.. no matter how much I want to.. cheat. I cant be like an alcoholic and have a drink.. I just cant.. it doesnt go in.. it cant happen.

This realisation takes awhile, and when it does sink in, its a very hard pill to swallow. Its hard to explain to someone who has not been through the same experience.

Anyway, the upshot is I am now 114kG, and feeling great (apart from a dislocated shoulder). I had sleep apnea, diabetes, hypertension, repeated cellulitis, and goodness knows what else was breaking. I couldnt get life insurance, couldnt fit in a normal size car, couldnt buy clothes, couldnt pee standing up, couldnt get a job, couldnt be a dad or a husband properly, couldnt look after my house, could hardly stand up. I was dead. Now I am alive again.
Anyone who says this surgery shouldnt be funded and available for those who need it should be lined up against the wall and shot. Because thats what they are doing to people they refuse to help.

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There was of course a few things I didnt like all that much, however, after listening to and reading articles about and by the producers/writers I thought it was fantastic.
They said they wanted to “emotionally resolve” the show, and they did that. They answered a few of the mysteries, and still left enough of a mystery so that many things are still mysteries, and will have people pondering them for awhile. The LOST theories websites are exploding with ideas over the last few days. That is why the ending what successful.

best lines:
Sawyer: It doesn’t sound like Jacob said anything about anything.
Hurley: That’s true dude, he’s worse than Yoda.

Sawyer: You all head to the heart of the Island and I’ll get the magic leprechaun out of the well.

Jack to Locke: I’m going to kill you.
Locke: How do you plan to do that.
Jack: Its a surprise. (LOL by Jack)

And the explanation of Everything:
Christian explains: I’m real, you’re real. Everything that has ever happened to you is real. All the people in the church, they’re all real too.
Jack They’re all dead?
Christian: Everyone dies sometime. Some of them before you, some of them long after you.
Jack: Why are they here now?
Christian: There is no now, here.
Jack: Where are we now?
Christian: This is a place that you all made together so you could find one another. The most important time of your life was when you were with these people. That’s why you are all here. No one does it alone Jack. You needed all of them and they needed you. Jack: For what?
Christian: To remember and to let go.
Jack: Kate, she said we were leaving.
Christian: Not leaving, no, moving on.
Jack: Where are we going.
Christian: Lets go find out.

Some people have argued that its a kind of purgatory, but I dont think the symbolism is even that religious, even though they used names like “Christian Shepard” – the mythology is tied up with too many religions, and there is too much time travel involved.
I suspect there is an element of purgatory, and universalism, as well as reincarnation, and multiple universes. Perhaps what happens, the writers suggest, is that in times of extreme we create our own alternate realities in which we work out all the evil and selfishness in our lives, and become better people, and live happily ever after.

I dont really know, but, thats sort of how it seems to me. Which ever way, I think it was fantastic, and a great ride.

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Today at 117 KG:

Note:

If you have had gastric surgery and take anti inflammatories (even nurophen) they can WREAK HAVOC with your stomach.

I went for a run, and tripped over the dog.. hurt my back.. a day later was in pain so took some nurophen. 2 days later thought, man, this hurts WORSE, went to the doc, got some voltarin, 2 days later i am virtually crippled (stomach pain like this has a habit of transmitting to other parts of the body, chest, shoulders, back, neck, etc). So after 2 weeks I am still crippled and now have some losec, which should kill the inflammation of the stomach.

DONT DO IT!

(http://www.gummer.co.nz)

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